Thursday, May 6, 2010

看不见的意义

和辉问我
怎么总爱玩那种无聊的游戏
那一问一答
存在或不存在
好像都没什么分别

对啊
仅剩的那一问一答
好像也不过如此而已

可是
心底有很细很细的声音在为自己辩护着...

希望不管表面上看来是如何的
事实上依然会有那么一点点的不一样
那只有我们自己能了解的不一样

微 :)

怎么啦?

假期前兴奋地计划着,期待着,向往着...
很多很多想完成的事情...

现在终于等到假期了
当然很开心
终于考完试了啊

可是
之前那份热诚却似乎比想象中的淡了点
在所有让人期待的假期计划面前
感觉心
只想好好休息

想暂时放缓脚步
看一看身边那平时被忽略了的风景
想暂时停下脚步
和久违的自己说说话
想暂时放下包袱
让自己专心地荒废时间
懒懒地赖在家里
让脑袋完全放空

可是回头想想
这样的话又好像有点空虚哦?
好啦,
女生就是这样矛盾...

微 :)

哈哈
纯粹发泄啦
假期还是快乐的


Wednesday, May 5, 2010

约定?

我希望

有那么一天

我们能读到那两张小字条

微 :)

这算是约定吗?

holiday to-do-list

Woohoo...!!

exam is over. what's next? HOLIDAY, here i come...!
have plenty of list-to-do during this coming holiday:

1. the end of exam signifies the start of I-Week 2010, so... let's kick the ball rolling! all OC and FC, i have faith on all of you, make this event a great success! ^^

2. besides I-Week, i have another on-going event also. 学记全国营2010. i am in the program department, and what-is-more, i'm in charging on the bloody opening ceremony gimmick. haha. it is going to dry up my brain 'juice' soon...

3. plenty of movie days! hk and 舜斌, i remember i promised you guys a movie each. be patient, i'll eke out a day for our date. hehe.

4. a long-awaited gathering with pi family. 8poh, faster finish your exam. yan, better make me the 1st person to be informed after you fly back to malaysia. ju, make yourself free, arrange a great outing for us! baobei, you are always so near yet so far. make a day free for us this within this 2 months, ok? i have a lot of stories and updates for you guys. miss all of you till the max!

5. babi hehui. you know what i want to say. and i know what you want to scold me for being such a busy busy and super busy person all these while. we haven't really make out our time to sit down and have a good chatting for some time already, isn't it? you too, make me the 1st person to be informed when you are back to malaysia, but i don't think i'm available to hang out with you until 学记全国营 ends at 19th june. come visit the camp la, its just at UCSI.

6. read some novels. i had been a full-time nerd for almost a month during my exam. study room was my room and my room was my hotel, for me to bath and sleep ONLY. and i suddenly miss you, babi hehui, very much when i don't know who to ask for any good reading recommendation. haha.

7. go back hometown, and spend some time with my dearest 阿公& 阿嫲. feel so guilty for not having the time to go back Pedas for almost a month due to exam. i think i had reached my limit. miss them soooo much.

8. of course, go back home, and enjoy my time with dad, mum, and bro... ever since we grew up and reach the college stage, we hardly get together in 5. always lack of someone either far at kuala pilah or kota bahru, and now UM. i miss the time when i can call "爸爸吃,妈咪吃" before meals... i miss to hear the LAME jokes from 2 of my SIAO brothers...

9. practise 古筝 of course. i have abandoned it in mum and dad's bedroom for such a long time, resisting myself from touching it when i have the chance to drop by at home during exam period so that i can go back to the nerdy world. now that i finally have time staying at home, i think i need to brush up my skills more. fingers are getting harder and odd on the strings. how am i suppose to go for the exam in august if this continues....

10. find someday, go malacca. i know you (yes you, and you know it's you i'm saying here) will know how much i want to go malacca someday, and you know why... make it happen PLEASE......

11. sleep sleep sleep and SLEEP. the deep dark panda eye bags have almost been my identity ever since i entered UM. when can i get rid of these ugly bags? haha. i kind of deserve that though, doing my revision last minutes, joining so many events, and yeah, being TOO responsible and perfectionist in everything. lol. duh, i am sure i can't help myself from outing, talking, watching drama and many more etc even after i am done with all the obligations. never mind, i will try to adjust my hours back to normal. TRY...

12. "planning on progress"

hopefully.... i will have a great and enjoyable holiday. after all the hectic life in campus, i do hope to have some time where i can put down all the pressure of studies, and completely enjoy myself in doing things that i like.

HaPpY hoLidAY everyone!
(8poh i know you will feel like whacking me when you see those red big words)

regards,
kaiwei :)

Sunday, May 2, 2010

大坏蛋
也许选择放弃
不是最需要勇气的决定
选择接受新的感觉
才要了我的所有的胆量

站在悬崖边
也不知是好是坏
只知道
我的极限就在这黄线上

像你说的
只希望
我的感觉就是我的答案

大坏蛋
很多事情即使你不对我说,我也知道
其实
很多东西即使我不对你说,你也知道
不是吗?
真的真的
很想念你

小坏蛋。微 :)


心累了

跑回家充充电

充满电了

又回来这鬼地方

继续冲刺
继续消耗电力

微 :)

家,永远是最温暖的避风港
好像已经找到



心的落脚地

微 :)