give and take

today

coming back in this small little room with four dull walls

i sees the smiles on your faces

i see the lasting bond in your friendship

i see the eternal needs to sustain each other's life

i see the joy you had, simply just by being with each other

was it jealousy that grew beneath?

or we call it envious?

or simply,

there was a small little tiny sound weeping from my heart,

wishing,

that i can be in one of the photos?

i felt a flare of forlorn within myself

a palpable sense of sorrow

silent

yet visible

"give and take"

i tried and am trying and will keep trying to convince myself with this useful meaningful phrase

kaiwei :(