Wednesday, December 22, 2010

something better than love letter :)

和你之间真的是一份“缘”,
你让我体会到并非亲姐妹但又似亲姐妹的感觉;

初次的认识,
模模糊糊的画面,
记得很不清楚,
但你却有时喜欢挂在嘴边,
“有个人,跑过来问我,我们可不可以做朋友?”
“你会不会讲华语?”
~lame~ 我想回去都有点尴尬,
笨笨的我竟然会做出如此下水的东西!
还要给你牢牢地记在你的心里!

每次听会回你诉说我们的经过,
又气又好笑,
气你把我下水的事情说出来,
好笑是那 lame 的动作让我找到那么的一个你。
虽然刚开始认识时,
之间的感情并非深厚,
之后我还“离队”,
认识另外一帮朋友,
记忆里,
和他们我也搞得很不开心,
还曾经流过眼泪,
以前的我眼泪线真的很浅。
若没有记错的话,
你曾经邀我和你们坐回一起。

之后,
一起当上图书管理员,
那时候也没有什么交集,
若没有记错的话,
我们真真一起熟起来时,
应该是中四时,一起上补习班,
还傻傻的我们并称小家庭-大姐,二姐,小妹
再次笨笨的我被骗成为大姐,
就这样成为了你的大姐,
给你叫下叫下大姐,
听习惯了,
所以当你叫我 Ong 时会骂一骂你,
欺负小妹还是我习惯做的事情勒!

我们之间的缘分都没有停过,
奇遇让我们再次遇上,
second intake 的我和你同一间 matriculation 已经很难得了,
还要在同一间宿舍 - C3,
那时候的开心的感觉并非笔墨能形容,
真的很棒。

但你大姐-我
性格不如你如此的看得开,
老实说,刚开头在 matriculation 的那几个月,
有点小妒忌你,
有点小不服你,
自认比你付出更多,
但得回的比你少;

这几年的相处,
这几个月的合作,
对你的认识更深进一步,
你的压力并非画在你的脸上,
你的悲哀伤心常常挂在你的心里,
了解到每个人的努力都是一样多的,
只是不是每个人都能看到的,
你的付出与我同等,
只是一层白雾把它遮着了,
从来没有发觉过。

那层白雾,
在我的心里应化掉了,
你我之间不分你我,
以大姐的身份,
答应会好好照顾你,
只有我一人可以欺负你!
哈哈哈~~~

不过,
常会做出对你过分的事情,
为了他们,
牺牲了你,
挂在嘴边骂骂的你,
虽说你没有事,
说说罢了,
但多多少少的失望应该有吧!
明白对你的不公平,
但有信心你会了解,
谅解。

还有,
之前有几次对你发脾气,
不知道为了什么事情,
就是曾经找你开刀过就对了,

办活动的斗嘴,
但那斗嘴的经历我却甜在心里,
尤其是我们成功达到共识,
出炉的结果还不错啦。
想告诉你,
我们是能合作的伙伴,
虽然称不上什么天衣无缝,
但大家开心就好,
到最后能把目标达到就好,
吵嘴和谁合作都有的,
即使是一对很恩爱的情侣都会有斗嘴的一天,
这样不平淡的生活,
才能真真地擦出火花。

还有,
有些事情我们之间太过熟,
很难开口,
所以有事时,
我不会第一个找你倾诉,
也许我想在你的心目中留下完美的大姐,
不想让你知道我太多不好的事,
不想让你知道我的不快乐,
可是,
到最后我也会忍不了口向你道说一切一切,
所以不要吃那么多醋,
在我心目中,
你比谁都特别,
你的真诚对待让我感动,
对你和其他人都有点 special 的咯,
没有心机地对待,
不求回报的对待,
只限几个人的拥有,
想告诉你
你是其中一个。
认识我那么久,
深信你比谁都了解我做事和处事方式,
都是机心累累。
哈哈哈,
竟在这里踩扁自己的人格,
tidak~~~


很开心认识你,
很开心你容忍我的不是和霸道,
很荣幸能够成为你的大姐,
发生不愉快的经过,
不知道你有没有对我改观,
可是,
你永远都是我的小妹,
那个傻婆小妹!

今天是你的生日,
在此祝你生日快乐,
笑容常常挂在你那小脸蛋,
对你的那一句话很深刻, “to protect the beautiful smiles on our faces”
答应你不管什么事情的发生,
那漂亮的笑容都回常挂在我们的脸上,
那八年的友情不会那么容易被毁掉的。

最后,
三八一下,
快快接受你的同学吧!
看得出你们都很喜欢对方,
当因为你的不肯定,
让他等了那么久,
一年的时间都快到了,
我也很想看看结局,
爱情在眼前要好好把握,
尤其是遇到彼此都喜欢彼此的时候,
虽然也许他不是你的最爱,
但他是能给你幸福的人,
你也愿意接受这份幸福的人,
这样就 ok 啦!
我要都没有!
哈哈哈。。。
真正的快乐不一定要和你最爱的人度过,
而是能给予你幸福的人。

~可不可以把这个 post 给关起来啊?~

哈哈哈,
20岁的凯微,
小妹,
2 字头来了,
你也开始老了!

大姐 上
=)

author's recap:

dajie, first time receive this kind of blog post dedication, very excited.
simply feel like 'stealing' this post from your page.

there's never enough of words for us to describe our many many years siblings bonding,
hence i believe,
action speaks louder than words.

between us,
we never used to say any touchy words.
but still,
the feelings exist.

real.
yet unsound.

well, i guess i will just cut the craps,
and left with you just one word.

THANKS!

loves,
小妹 :)

Monday, December 20, 2010

thanks god


sometimes, some things, aren't the same although they are the same.
as they differ by person.
by who whom did that SOME things.

it can be hurtful when one person does this;
but joyful when it is done by another someone.


the forbidden door has been unlocked.
surprise. even to myself. i know.
what was it that drove the intention to unlock it?
even myself, i couldn't tell.

timing? part of it, i guess.
person? most of it, i perhaps.


for many days and nights i have been thinking of it.
thinking of whether that was a right decision to make.
and again, even myself, i couldn't tell.
we will just let some special thing called 'time' to prove me the precious outcome.

what if it is right? thanks god, we made it.
if it is wrong? thanks god, we tried our best to make it.


good luck and happy birthday to myself.


kaiwei :)


very peaceful birthday i had
without limhehui limxiaoyan limjuwee shayeejin tangcarrie
who always make a wonderful noise in each other birthday
i simply miss you guys so much
and seriously appreciate the voices of hehui and yan yestd, ON TIME...
muakks....



happy birthday

happy birthday to me!

thanks for the calls, especially the two surprising calls from UK.
thanks for the wishes.
thanks for the gift.
thanks for the trip.

simplicity, sometimes can be memorable still...


kaiwei:)

Sunday, December 12, 2010

same words. different speaker.


the same words,
same sentences,
same terms used...
can be interpreted in different meaning in different period from different person.

sorry that i always interpreted your words in this way,
not good,
and never it is fair,
i know...

but even myself couldn't understand why,
that it will happen to be such a difference between others and you, particularly...

is it because you are someone special for me?
or is it because i have higher expectation on you?

there is one thing that i never dare to tell you,
that perhaps, maybe, probably, likely...
i mean,
just...
PERHAPS,
that's the reason why i sometimes do wish us to remain in the grey zone just like the way it is...

because i know myself.
and that is why i was never a qualify candidate in that position.


well,
perhaps you can not to worry too much,
as i had never been so firm with myself ever since that year...
even until today.

that is me. the i-also-don't-know-what's-happening me...


kaiwei :)

anyway
don't worry
i believe
and i know you do believe
that things will be alright
when things are all alright


Friday, December 10, 2010

siblings

siblings

we know each other ever since the moment we open our eyes to see this world

we are close
very close
that's why we never keep our words in the heart

but
sometimes
it's also of the same reason

that we know each other too well
that we expect them to understand us the very same 'well'

we argue easily


the 'best' catalyst to provoke un-satisfaction
is when both have different expectations
in works


sometimes
i would rather


not work with you
to protect


the beautiful smiles on our faces


kaiwei :)

i am sorry
if sometimes i am harsh

i am sorry
if sometimes i do mind

i am sorry
if i made you feel bad



Friday, December 3, 2010

looking forward...

looking forward...

for the coming 2 days 1 night malacca trip.
and you know why :P

kaiwei :)

when was the last time i...


when was the last time i spoke with lim he hui?

when was the last time i met tang carrie?

when was the last time i msn with lim xiao yan?

when was the last time i breakfast with cheow hock khuen?

when was the last time i asked 'pi! how are you?' to lim ju wee?

when was the last time i spam the conversation box of sha yee jin?

when was the last time i had lunch or dinner or supper with tham kar kit?

when was the last time i knew about cambridge life from tang ji jian?

and etc, etc, and etc...

when on earth,
was the last time i step out from my university life circle and go back to my good old friends' warmth?


when...
was...
the...
last...
time...
we...
had...
a...


GATHERING?!!!

kaiwei :)

8poh
damn long didnt sms with you already
tonight sms till my fingers also painful
haha
happy...
wheeee~~

给你的,猪大少爷


你说


不要把眼泪洒在过去残败的记忆里
掀开新的一页
留下崭新 洁白 的诗集
不管结果是如何
亲情和友情将永远在你身后替你撑腰

什么时候开始
你的鼓励
你的安慰
已经成了能让本公主安心的话

什么时候开始
你的鼓励
你的安慰
已经成了本公主崩溃前想听到的话

什么时候开始
你的鼓励
你的安慰
已经成了本公主习惯翻看的话

什么时候开始
你似乎成了本公主的好朋友
那特别的好朋友

我想说
谢谢你

我想说
希望
你一直都是本公主那特别的好朋友

我想说
多忙
也别忘了向本公主请安哦

把猪和公主联想起来,是这样的东东吗?
哈哈

微 :)

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

我知道
这个时刻
不应该气馁
可是还是忍不住奢望着
能有个紧紧地拥抱
让我好好痛哭一场

我答应
哭过
就好了

尽力就好?

原来


“尽力就好”

这四个字



粗心的人用不起
努力错方式的人用不起
高估自己的人用不起
道理明白得彻彻底底 需要时却不会运用的人用不起
还有
嘴里说无所谓 心里却在流泪的人


用不起


Tuesday, November 23, 2010

明年

了整一年的“明年”
好像到了

脑海突然飘过三个字




怎么办?

哈哈


期待?:D
紧张?>.<
还是担心?=.="

其实
最想知道的
却也最令我胆怯

是那“明年”以后
我们会不会有怎样的



不一样


微 :)



Sunday, November 21, 2010

失控

对不起

那控制不了的





眼泪


虽然

最后



还是撑住了

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

满天繁星


半夜
走回房的路上
抬头一望
看见满天都是星星

吉隆坡的夜空有这样的景色
算不错了

其实
一直很喜欢满天繁星的夜空



考试快到了
压力也自然多了

偶然
走在这满天繁星的夜空下
突然想到
曾经
你给我的那句鼓励

失去灯火之后不必慌乱
因为你还可以看见满天繁星

不知你自己还记得吗?

此时此刻
希望
满天繁星
真的
可以照亮我前方的路

谢谢你
谢谢你们
一直都在我身边
用你们不一样的方法
给我同样的鼓励
同样的感动


微 :)

远在马口的猪少
想不到你半年前说的话
我还记得吧?
不要太感动哦...

原来
我们没有半张合照
>.<


race.time.


I am racing with time


everyday...



it seems like a never-ending race,



until the 8th December 2010...


kaiwei :P

gambate everyone :D

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

lucky starrrrrr

睡前

刷牙
洗脸
换衣
梳头
照照镜子

愕然发现.....!








越来越像







lucky star.....
-.-"


微 :)

突然肚子饿!

Saturday, November 13, 2010

happy THREE friends...


it has been some time since THREE of us went out for dinner together,
depart from 10th college,
and come back to 10th college eventually...

the bonds and feelings,
they seem to be still the same as before.

the only difference is,
this does not happen often anymore.
we are no longer staying in the same college,
we are no longer having the almost-similar consistent schedule,
dinner-ing together is no longer the daily routine for us...

well,
never mind...

as long as,
the FRIENDSHIP is still there,
always there,
and forever there...

nice to have you...


...and you....

...walked into my life...!

loves,
kaiwei :)


i miss holiday...

was browsing randomly on my old blog post just now, just to give myself a little PAUSE as i kept dozing off while studying the bloody DFD... found one old long post about my grandpa and grandma that i wrote with all hearts previously... "阿公& 阿嫲”

can't believe i was touched by my own words!! haha...

miss the moment when i used to stay over at hometown one or two whole weeks during holiday. will i have this chance again during this coming holiday? hmmph... need to start up our intensive mass calling for Accounting Night marketing stuff, meet up with some sponsors perhaps. i will be having just a 2-3 weeks break after cutting off MASC days. well well well... will have to plan and reschedule and see how things go... miss to spend time with 阿嫲and 阿公 a lot a lot. perhaps, i simply just miss the time being at home with my family, without any worries about exam or assignments in campus? *looking forward*

the best thing to do in life is to spend time together with your love onesssssssss

seeing their smiles
watching their motions
listening to their voices
feeling their existence, just around us

LOVE
is all i can say...

kaiwei :)

limhehui,limxiaoyan,limjuwee
seems like lost contact with you 3 already
especially babi limhehui, if you are reading my blog at all
miss you miss you miss all of you!!!

Friday, November 12, 2010

放在心上的朋友

一直都很想知道

李凯微在大家心目中




是怎样的一个朋友


又或者
其实有多少个人
会真正记得他们还有我这么一个朋友

真心话
可以吗?

微 :)


忘了珍惜

不要宠坏我

绝对不要



因为当我开始习惯了这种溺爱





也许

我会忘了如何珍惜



想家
真的好想家

安全感

怎么

付诸的感情多了
安全感

反而



少了?


曾经被摧毁
之后再重建的
安全感
好像
比较不稳固

是因为考试的压力吗?

Thursday, November 11, 2010

任性

谢谢你!


总是忍让着我那偶尔任性...



真的是偶尔罢了哦
而且只是小小小小小的小任性哦

微 :)

Monday, November 8, 2010

有时候

不要去期待
不要去等待



就不会有失望

这样
那些突然来的好
才能变成惊喜

微 :)

鼓励

小坏蛋
与其觉得完蛋
但不如我们用不同的心态去面对
偶尔的挫折
才会让我们
去反省
去检讨
去思考
有时竞争和名利让我们迷失自我
我们不是输不起
只是要输得有价值
尽力就好啊

大坏蛋
谢谢你的话

有时候
虽然很多事实我自己已经很清楚
虽然我也知道
就算多么压力多么辛苦多么无聊
书还是得读
试还是得考
但一些很简单的鼓励
可以是我继续坚持下去的动力

我也会一直记得
一年前的今天你给我的那句鼓励
“从学海走出去的人,是不会失败的”

一起加油吧!

小坏蛋 :)

Saturday, November 6, 2010

雪中送炭


Studystudystudystudy...
pretaxaccountingincometemporarydifferencedeferredtaxassetdeferredtaxliability...
vomitbloodvomitbloodvomitblood...


"Oh my pretty pretty boy I~~~ " (my hp's ringtone)

Dad : 读书读到怎样了啊?
Me : 就这样咯..哈哈 (其实,读到要吐血-ing)
Dad :今晚找你吃饭啦,可以吗?(看到希望之光-ing
Me : 可以~~~~ (迫不及待-ing)
Dad :嗯,六点半我们过去找你啦...
Me :OK!!!! (极度兴奋+感动-ing)

拥有天底下最棒的老爸,本公主能不幸福吗?

还是那一句,
家,我最温暖的避风港;
家人,我最最最温暖的依靠...

*wink*

kaiwei :)

年尾,我们再一起去旅行,好吗?^^


focus focus focus focus focus...

LEE KAI WEI!!!


you really need to focus...

focus...

focus...

focus...

FOCUS!!!

bloody hell, anyone can help?

kaiwei >.<

Friday, November 5, 2010

维生素

到底是什么时候开始

我生命中多了一样不可缺少的




维生素

微 :)

从来没想过
自己可以那么依赖一个人

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

多的是

你不知道的事


微 :)
4.40am



yes!
i am 16 minutes earlier tonight.

kaiwei @.@

simplicity

i see simplicity.
what about you?

kaiwei :)

i don't deserve the luxurious.

LUXURY...

when it comes once in a while,
we appreciate with all our hearts;

but

when it comes too frequent and easy,
we take it for granted.

if so,

i rather,
live the simplest life,
and own the simplest thing in life...


so that i will still smile,
with the tiniest happiness i get,

so that my heart will still beat fast with excitement,
when the luxury comes into my life
just once in a while...

kaiwei -.-"

i probably need more sparkles
especially in this bloody bored study week
to stop myself from thinking nonsense
to stop myself from screwing my head on the corner of the wall
and to stop myself from not being able to focus in study!
>.<

突然很想念
那最由衷的自己


会为了小小小小的不一样
而紧张得发抖
会为了小小小小的付出
而感动得掉眼泪
会为了小小小小的拥有
而幸福大半天

的自己


偶然发现
当我们的步伐越来越快
我会忘了去享受
那最原始的感动
也会忘了去珍惜
那最简单的幸福

所以
对你
对我自己
我可以奢侈地有个要求吗?


我希望
放慢脚步
让我们回到
那最原始最简单的我们

微 :)

对不起
我不是故意的
只是
突然
顾虑了

Monday, November 1, 2010

still tick-ing and tock-ing...

after a great weekend back at home,
fully recharged,
energetic,
and i am, again,
no choice but all ready to jump back into this bloody mud.
stresses...
deadlines...
they just never end.
but it's alright,
like i said, i am fully recharged.

again another BUT,
look how it always ended up to be like?
i repeat,
ALWAYS...
look at the ticking of the clock, it's damn demotivating




4.56am.

what the hell.

kaiwei >.<


Friday, October 29, 2010

good night


time management

time management

time management

time management

time management

i seriously need to brush up much much more on this...

and i swear, i will make it happen one day SOON!


someone told me,
i should learn to conquer my mind,
not to let my mind conquer me.

possible?
haha.
let's wait and see.

good night!

"i need a good night sleep like her... "

kaiwei :)

Thursday, October 28, 2010

有缘牵手,就不要轻易放手

这几天
有感触

我想说
缘分得来不易

当初
既然选择了牵起她的手
就得对这决定负责
'commitment'
包含的不只是付出
还有牺牲
还有体谅

偶尔
觉得累了的时候

请想一想
那时候的你
为什么会想对她好?

想一想
那时候的你
凭着什么信念给她继续走下去的信心?

也请你想一想
那时候的你
为什么能迁就体谅了解她,多苦也觉得值得...

偶尔
觉得累了的时候

请停下脚步
想一想
当初喜欢她那纯纯的感觉
没有其他
就只有两个字
喜欢

我想说

有缘牵手,就不要轻易放手...

共勉之,
微 :)

给那特别的你
像大姐说的
错过你
是他的粗心
会有那么一天
你会遇到懂得珍惜你的他
请记得
人生总要有句号
才能开始编写新的句子
你值得拥有更好的
亲爱的,要开心,要幸福哦!
加油!^^

i can sense danger...


~tick tock tick tock tick tock~

i smell stress coming nearer and nearer...

this time,
no more assignments,
no more tutorials,
no more presentations...

keep the best till the last?
great,
now the worst is finally approaching.

FINAL EXAM!!!

agree-able? haha...

kaiwei >.<

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

take care my dear

my dear,
let bygone be bygone...

i know it is not easy,
i know it hurts,
because i was once in exactly the same position as well..
but still,
life goes on...

again, my dear,
i would say,
give and take...

you knew it is hard to give the commitment that he is expecting,
you knew it is hard to reach the consensus when neither of you both willing to move a step backwards,
you knew everything but just one...

you don't know that this is so hard and so hurt to bear...


perhaps today at this moment,
he is the only one you can imagine yourself in love with...


but let me tell you this,
give another chance to something call TIME..
it might not be able to make you forget,
but it will at least helps to ease out the pains...
so please, my dear,
give yourself more time,
give the pains more time...
the day will reach,
when you will meet another someone,
who appreciates you much more than he does,
who worth your tears much more than he does,
who will try his very best,
to make you smile instead of making your cry,
and who will understand you first, before he expects you to understand him...


last but not least,
my dear,
remember,
no matter what happened out there,
you still have me,
you still have us...

i promise you,
you are not alone,
and never will be alone...

take care there, my dear...



kaiwei :)



Tuesday, October 26, 2010

不服气

说好了不再在乎成绩
说好了要以平常心面对考试
说好了尽力就好

怎么



还是心碎了?

其实
我只是觉得不忿
放了这么多努力
换来的就是这该死的结果

生气老师
更生气自己
怎么又不能控制情绪了

算了吧
也许
只能怪自己
不会背答案


微 :(

现在好多了

我会记得
人总会面临很多挫折
或许看似努力了
却得不到该得到的
但你相信
人在做,天在看
成绩或许现在看不到
但这不代表一切

人在做
天在看

我也会记得
说的
记得我们的约定
不管多苦
也要记得微笑的理由

微 :)

Friday, October 22, 2010

感动

偶然

在丽玮的部落格里看到这篇文章

心理突然涌上瞬间的感动


感动因为在远方读书的你
不管多忙还会想起我
感动因为久没联络的你
竟然会特地从新加坡寄了封信息给我
感动因为一年见面不到一次的你
依然记得我微笑的样子
感动因为特别的你
一直也把我当成你特别的朋友



今天在巴士上看到了一个很像凯微的女生
并不真的长得很像,只是。。。神似。
尤其是那笑容,笑起来时眼角的笑意,嘴角的弧度及洁白的牙齿,一再让我恍神,以为自己看到了凯微。(写到好像凯微是我的情人酱)
很巧的,下车后她依然和我走同一个方向,我走在她后面,脑中却一直想着凯微。
想起以前和凯微在一起说话,一起做事,一起笑,一起哭。
我很想念她。(这下写得好像她是我的前女友 囧)
不知道有没有人和凯微说过,她笑起来的样子,很好看,很温暖,给人一种力量。

p/s:
kai wei, i never forget your smile :)


亲爱的,
谢谢你的友谊
温暖了我的心

微 :)

Thursday, October 21, 2010

友情不灭,真心知解

《真心知解》

词:振康 曲:振康/智财
编:智财 演:静冰/生琳

毛虫蜕变成了蝴蝶 岁月不妥协
怎么一瞬间 已跨过成长岁月
漫长的大学 无数精彩的情节
是你微笑的脸 倒影进我的双眼

梦想与现实交界 感性与理智对决
在无助的瞬间 你安抚了所有的一切
是你坚决 要我陪你一起闯这个世界
黑夜或白天 都要肩并肩

友情不灭 真心知解 我们将心手相协
不怕威胁 不顾一切 勇往直前轰轰烈烈
友情不灭 真心知解 陪你渡过的每一个夜
欢笑依然不曾停歇 欢乐也不曾欠缺

友情不灭 真心知解 历尽了狂风暴雪
不知不觉 后知后觉 又快到了离别季节
友情不灭 真心知解 说好一起遨游这世界
有你陪在我的身边 就再也不怕危险

想对你说一声谢谢 我们是最真挚的真心知解


很喜欢这首歌的歌词

我想说,
我们的生命中也许会出现很多朋友
但能称得上真心知解的
有几个?

很庆幸
我不管去到生命中的哪一个阶段
打从小学
中学
大学预科班
到现在的大学
我都会遇见真正关心我的朋友
也就是所谓的真心知解

从来
我就是被你们
疼着
护着
眷顾着
关心着
的那一个

也许现在的我们已经不常联络了
有些甚至已经失去联络了
但至少
那时的我们
是真心把对方当作最好的朋友
我相信
现在的我们
一样怀念着这份真挚的友谊

真心知解
友谊万岁

久违的屁屁家族

八婆 vs 八婆

君儿跑儿凯儿

那青色的云

很好欺负的buddy

一年见一次面的学记们

有妈妈有大姐有美女有叉烧有老鼠,就是没有爸爸

大坏蛋 vs 小坏蛋

BABI LIM *oink oink*

制造了好多故事的我们

当然少不了,那最特别的你

:)