tick tock tick tock...

assignments:

OB, Audit, Com Law, BR, MA1...

exams:

OB, Audit, Com Law, BR, MA1, AAIS...

events:

acc night post mortem, celebrations, MASC celebration, famine 30...

decision to make:

work or not work? masc or not masc? tired 3rd year or relaxing 3rd year? dad or myself?

self-caring task:

sleep earlier. rest more. awake in class more. take care of myself more!

hmmph... i should stop pondering and start moving forward. bloody hell.

hate last minute.

hate assignments more.

but i hate exam the most.

kaiwei >.<

advice, anyone?

it has been some time, erm, few days, since i last posted.

many works are pending in my to-do-list.

many words are forcing to blurt out from my fingers dancing on the keyboard.

many thoughts are running in my mind.

but i seems to be doing NOTHING still.

dilemma-ing.

holiday plan. to work? to learn? or to play? intern? short courses? or famine 30?

intern? i earn the working experiences, but not the joy. i fulfilled my dad's wish, but not myself.

zither? i spend more money, more time. i earn the satisfaction, by doing better on my hobby.

short courses? again, spend more money. but i earn the extra skills. extra knowledges.

famine 30 camp? this is a passion, a promise, an interest, a fervent desire to keep myself involved. but the last thing i wish to see is the disappointment in dad's tone and expression.

advice, anyone?

after-holiday plan. masc. yes, or no?

yes, it is also a passion. but no, i am afraid i've not reach the standard yet.

yes, this is a chance for me to take up a big challenge. but no, why am i throwing pressure on myself again?

yes, have fun working with the juniors again. but no, sleeping 2-3-4-5am life is killing.

yes. no. yes. no. yes. no. blaaarrrrhhhhhhh....

advice, anyone?

perhaps, i really should take a halt and reschedule my brain, heart, mind and soul.

gambate my dear. start moving your legs if you want to walk to the next destination!!!

kaiwei :)

lol. proven.

procrastination, is again, the best time killer...

it is just...

so

so

so

so

NICE

to be home.

as usual, home, always the best place to stay...

kaiwei :)

limxiaoyan

met your daddy today

he said you will be coming back only on december

WHAT??? DECEMBER????!!!

i hope uk's december is same with malaysia's june

*sobs*

*so long more to wait*

亲爱的你要幸福

忙碌

欢笑

颓废

的同时

忘了关心身边的你

和他

最近好不好

今天

听到你的诉苦

看到你的眼泪

偷偷地

觉得内疚

忽略了关心身边的你

同样一句话

亲爱的

不懂得珍惜你

是他的粗心

把你的眼泪留给值得让你流泪的人

不是要你放弃

只是希望

你能真的拥有幸福

我一直在说

有缘牵手，就不要轻易放手

说到底

还是希望

亲爱的，你能真的幸福，开心...

给彼此一段时间

让你们的心

好好沉淀下来

也许

你可以再为他做最后一次的努力

努力找到你们之间的平衡点

再重新出发

携手走到终点

真心话

只要你认为值得

就放手去做吧

多苦多累多难熬多挣扎

至少

你努力过

到最后

不要忘了

你的身边依然

有我

有我们

为你打气 为你加油

朋友，不就是这样的吗？

微 :)

不希望有一天

失去了

一起努力的动力

加油

人在做

天在看

我依然

坚信着

微 :)

sometimes i can't help myself from thinking,

was it a right decision to make?

i might as well pull out and back off,

not concerning about anything which i am NOT SUPPOSED to be concerning in this position.

i am not anyone to say anything on any matter. i know. and i should have knew it earlier.

the moment i chose to be the one outside the circle and not the other way round,

i knew i would face this situation anyhow later.

sometimes i can't help myself from thinking,

how will the situation be?

if it was a different decision made,

and that different decision actually put me in a different position from where i am now,

where i will be right opposite the river with all of you.

being one of the crowd in the opposite side?

what a thing to be imagined.

of course,

pros and cons,

give and take,

again.

perhaps,

i shall stop struggling the nonsense,

as those nonsenses have been a fact which couldn't be changed anymore.

as i didn't intend to see any changes anyway.

yes, i shall cherish the pros and take that i am able to earn from here.

and not the other way round.

live my own way to the max. even in a world and environment that i couldn't take much control on it. i swear i will. find my own space.

kaiwei :)

the last thing and the only thing that i will never hope to see

is the mask that you NEED to put on when speaking with me

please, i am begging hard. to you, you and you.

stay with me, be with me,

as a friend. and just friend.

can we?

累了

发现

闭着眼

背靠背

肩靠肩

静静的

不说话

也是种话题

也可以是很舒服的沟通方式

那一刻

觉得

这样

就够了

其他的

不着急

不催促

不在意

不重要

微 :)

自己把自己遗漏了吗？

也许

取

舍

永远是我学不会的东西

看着你们的谈话

听着你们的笑声

感觉

是自己把自己遗漏了

希望

很快

我也会找到

属于自己的角落

属于自己的天地

属于自己的话题

属于自己的笑声

祝大家

前途似锦

微 :)

怀念着

那所谓且引以为傲的那纯纯的友谊

你说

有什么事情

一定要跟对方说

第一次的尝试

好像

不太成功

哦

呵呵

也许

我需要

他更多的主动

和更好的回应

微

虽然觉得只是小事一桩

也许真的只是小事一桩

但到底这小事

是肥皂泡泡

还是一颗雪球？

longing for a heart-to-heart conversation

when nothing is stuck in the mind

and nothing hang in the heart

it is easy to speak and chat and crap any conversations freely

but why is that

when some words are blocking just in the corner of the lips

the brain and heart tend to keep thinking turning and hesitating

on how the heck is the first sentence suppose to be started

i guess i just need a talk

with anyone

and especially you

kaiwei

Accounting Night 2011, SIAP~

see, i told you...

the smiles on their face, prove the worthiness of our hardworks...

the tears in their eyes, prove the worthiness of our eyebags...

the feedback from their mouth, prove the success of our event!!!

quoted a few lines from the sponsors and the crowd,

"it is great night. very well organized... we enjoyed ourselves..."

Mr Poon Yew Hoe, the Managing Partner of Crowe Horwath, my lovely dearest main sponsor!

"this is probably the BEST UMAC event that i've ever attended..."

Mr Siew Chin Kiang, the staff partner of KPMG, my co-partner!

"seriously, this is the best accounting night i've ever attend. i thought the one i attended in my 1st year was the best and always will be the best, but today, i think this is better than that"

Mr Issac Tan Qi Hong, the handsome buddy of Kylie Lee Kai Wei, my buddy la....

"well done dude... finally you can rest and don't forget the EY day that you've to start working on it..."

Mr Brendan Yap Aik Fan, my.....senior. haha... gosh, i thought acc night was the end. how come still have EY day~ >.<

others... i don't remember the exact line la. but what i'm sure is, ALL the feedbacks from sponsors were positive, and i can see from their faces, these feedbacks are SINCERE..(hopefully, haha) simply love the line that Mr Siew said. this line, made me feel that all the tiring works of cracking my brain for better marketing packages, sacrifice of sleep time that i spent to prepare the proposals again and again, worries and anxiousness i've experienced from travelling to different sponsor places everytime and get lost ALMOST every time...worth their prices.

i wouldn't imagine myself shouting this out loud but this is what i'm doing now,

"I LOVE MARKETING!!"

lol. anyone please come and prove that i'm in unsound mind :P

anyway, overall, after all,

accounting night 2011,

oscar night - a walk to remember,

is a great success.

kudos to all OCs...

kudos to all marketing members...

kudos to all program members especially the HEAD...

kudos to all sponsors especially crowe horwath for being the main presenter, EY and BDO for wanting to be the main presenter but just too late to confirm...

and finally,

kudos to all participants...

opsss.. i left out one.

kudos to MYSELF~~~

photos behind the scene.

the cutest and most expensive SS bear...

at least i got a photo with her even though i couldn't own her...

maggie tea the statue..

photos of the NIGHT.

sampat juniors with the fantastic but expensive backdrop...

what a match... tongxue and buddy, see their clothes also know ada jalan...

the Queen of the night. and a very very vey great dancer...

i should have been wearing the OC dance clothes when taking this photo. orange shirt, white skirt, white west. more matching with buddy...

marketing team. juniors and members who have been working hard with me for the money money and money all these while...

the marketing team is completed only when we have mike the supervisor and chin ting, my 'partner' of marketing.... partnership is great, isn't it? :)

chin ting my great partner. sincere million thanks to her for helping me even after acc camp has over. half of the credits on the success of marketing team should go to her... :D

mummy a tao, daddy a tao, and a lui member? ^^

buddy buddy... finally you are not a BOD but just a BUDDY...

大姐的大哥，抢了我大姐的臭师父...haha. no time to 针对 you that night. anyway thanks a lot for coming. and thanks a lot for being target of my desire to bully. look forward for any chances of working together in the future. let's prove it together that we're not 水火不容 la... :P

amy & chia lock. the 小H members! where is shi ming and caryn arrrrr?

dear dajie... congratz for being selected as the council member of UMAC. this is the last chance for you, to think of what you want, and to really take action to do what you want. no matter the intention is for yourself, or for the board, or for the juniors... just do it, and you will see the results after a year. never forget, your 小妹 always support you here, and will always do... good luck...! :D

last but not least, i would like to say, that i really enjoyed watching the whole show of the night. although i was left aside to sit with the sponsors, and have to take care of my manner not to be too HIGH, but sitting right in front of the stage watching the whole performances of all the OC, whether on stage, back stage, beside the stage, beside the hall, or even behind the hall... the only thing i can see is, we are really working hard to make a night the night!!!

looking forward to see how accounting night will turn out to be 2 years later, in our graduation year. i want awards, if not more than, at least same, with the price of this year awards..! and crowe horwath excellent student awards, you guys better get us the same SONY V-Series laptop~ lol

kaiwei :)

along the preparation of this event

i see myself more clearly

especially the 'pattern' when i have to work with others, with you

i used to hope all these stupid thoughts to end earlier

probably at the moment acc night ends

yes,now that it really has end

will everything be ok?

hopefully, we will make it...

as the way you face it, respond to it, and talk to it

doesn't at all seems like you take it as a MATTER..

Oscar Night - A Walk to Remember...

this is perhaps

the last time i have to stay up so EARLY every night

fighting for the reaching of the official event day

tired? i have no reason to deny this

exhausted? this is definitely a FACT

killing my health? yes, this is exactly what's happening to me, and everyone of us here now

i wonder,

what still keep us here,

despite all the eyebags and non-stopping yawning that we earned in exchange of this?

the experience? maybe.

the joy of working together as a team? more likely a yes, i perhaps.

the skills that we gained? hmmph.... not so an obvious result for everyone, i suppose.

anyhow,

here we are at this moment

the usually noisy and warm dataran zaba

but freaking freezing and peaceful over in the midnight, and over the midnight

hey you, you have been staring the laptop watching the multimedia for hourssssss...

hey you, you have been walking to and fro between accounting room and zaba for timeeessss....

hey you, you have been painting, hammering, setting up, and trying on the gimmick again and againnzzzzz...

hey you, you can go back to your college much earlier than now, yet you volunteered yourself to stay back over to help out whatever you can on others. i'm just so proud of you...

and hey you, you have been staying over with your team mates for many nights and midnights, no matter your efforts are needed here or not. you would rather sleep hugging yourself on the hard cold chair than going back to the soft comfortable bed. you choose to stay. and you always do.

as for myself. i stay, not because i have undone works on hand. i stay, simply because i enjoy being together with you and you and you, simply because i enjoy the wonderful moment seeing all of us working as a team, aiming to achieve one same goal...

ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls... the night, will be OUR night, and we shall anticipate the results of all our sticky body and eyebags after working hard for so many months. we shall witness the smiles on their faces, that prove our hard works. we shall watch the tears from their eyes, that prove our sincerity. and we shall, simply just put a smile in our heart, seeing the torturing period will FINALLY COME TO AN END!!!

you definitely missed the fun,

if you missed...

accounting night 2011,

OSCAR NIGHT - A WALK TO REMEMBER...!

simply a bunch of random craps in the midnight,

kaiwei :)

after all these while

i learn to treasure the moment

when i can stay with you until the very last moment

that i can stay with you

回家

格外珍惜

那么一点点回家的时间

虽然短暂

但

能够回到那熟悉又温馨的环境

听到你们那熟悉又温馨的声音

看到家里那熟悉又温馨的脸孔

感觉

暖暖的

期待着

下一次的

回家

微 :)

lemonie剪了个奇怪的头发！

是自己

想多了吧

微

the decision decided

as the clock points towards 12am sharp, midnight

i knew i am moving from 'making decision' stage into 'decision made' stage

seeing more and more names with different writing on the used-to-be-empty paper

i see different thoughts

different intentions

different dreams

different goals

but yet

there is one similar point in all of you

its the same PASSION

to continue staying in this particular place

that were once the place that gives us sunlight, gives us water, and gives us oxygen

so that we can grow, and keep growing

from just a smally tiny mini seed

into a tall strong plant now

that is able to protect the new grown seeds below us from heavy downpour

each of you and all of you

might be holding the different keys which are use to open 11 different doors

but i sincerely hope

you can push away all selfish, self-serving and self-centred thoughts

hold your hands together

put your hearts together

to make the impossible possible

while for me myself

i believe

and i hope

there is still another opening door awaiting me ahead in the mist

yes, in the mist, but no doubt, it exists...

good luck

for you, and for myself...

i've made my choice, hoping it to be the right one

but i can never know whether i am right

until the day we reach the destination

at the same time

but different place

kaiwei :)

hey there, someone there,

thanks for being with me

even before you know what the heck is playing in my plan

hopefully

we will be able to work this out

by being the best partner in the remaining 2 years of campus life ^^

beginning, progress and success

interesting quote from tan chin teck:

Coming together is a beginning, Staying together is a progress, and Working together is a success. So, STAY TOGETHER...

many times, this is exactly what brings us together in an event.

no matter how exhausting moments we had, no matter how firm were we when we assured ourselves that we will NEVER join the same event or same department or even the same team anymore; somehow, eventually we are all ended up here at the same place, same time, same spirits, working towards the same goal.

hence i guess, it's the feeling of being TOGETHER in the beginning, progress and success that make us all here.

good luck, all OCs of Accounting Night 2011...

kaiwei :)

tired

complaint a lot

yet still

contented

and keep moving forward

TOGETHER

^^

anticipating the never ending learning path

it is almost the time

for me to start planning

how incredibly amazing and exciting i want my 3rd year of campus life to be like

finding stress and heavy burden myself, many would say

grabbing every learning opportunities that i can, i would answer...

join my never ending learning path, anyone?

kaiwei :)

anticipating

whatever it is

awaiting ahead of me

enjoy to the max

at the same time

learn and gain to the max!

是因为

平时

把自己

包装成

太强悍

太坚强

太自立

了吗？

微

很多时候

想要做好一件事情

靠自己

比靠别人

好

多

多

多

多

了

加油，李凯微！

难不倒你的！

微 T.T

leadership

owh...

leadership

it is definitely a tough, if not the toughest, subject to learn

i meant,

learn,

PRACTICALLY...

a sincere salute *hands up*

and a humble bow *waist down*

to all the great leaders out there...

kaiwei :)

the form on the wall

way before the form was pasted up there on the wall

i started by weighting process on the pros and cons that i can think of

well

i don't know

but at least until now at this particular moment

no i have NO intention to put my name on it

hmmph...

let's see

who's right at the end of the day

haha

kaiwei :)

the hidden frown behind those smiles

i was smiling while i am talking

like there is no at all hard feelings beneath my heart

wonder have you guys realize

the struggle inside me

struggling to scrutinize every single changes on your face

struggling to notice every tiny little disappointment in your voice

i hope

i was sensitive enough

to be able to read your mind

and your hidden messages

at the same time

i hope

i was not sensitive at all

to worry so much

and to upset so long

sincerely i wish

it's all over

kaiwei :)

一起努力的热衷

想要重温

曾经

那单纯的我们

一起奋斗

一起努力

一起熬夜

一起疯狂

一起感动

的

感觉

微 :)

想念你

想念你们

什么时候

我们会实现

我们21岁要做的年少轻狂的事

beauty

standing in this particular spot

you failed to see the beautiful scenery

don't presume,yet

that the beauty does not exist

it does

maybe you are just in the wrong position

try again

bring up your foot steps

move

to the higher look out point

it gives a much clearer view

and you will soon realize

the scene does exist

surprising you by it's fascinating beauty

kaiwei :)

五分钟的通话

五分钟的通话

感觉

好像

好多了

微 :)

真的

是自己

多心了吗？

Career Exposure Day SIAP!!

at the moment you blurted the words out

that you think the whole department of mine is SUCKS

does it ever crossed your mind before

that how sucks it is to say the sucks word?

i held back the tears

for i know i have to swallow down every single wronged that you put on me

for the different status quo that we are having

he said: don't worry, what has passed had passed, just let it go

he said: it's ok, sometimes you can never satisfy everyone, just let it passed

she said: never mind one la, no need bother them.

still,

tone raised and emotion fluctuates whenever i talk about the story again

tears used to be just around the corner of the eyes at that particular moment

now that i think back from another aspect

maybe i should thank you

thank you for your extraordinarily super duper triple extremely angry emotions splashed on me

thank you for your inconsideration on any possible mistakes that might not be caused by us

thank you for not appreciating ANY of the hard works that we had put just to satisfy both sides

as you taught me a lesson today

a lesson that i can never get it in a classroom

a lesson that makes me have a clearer view on the reality out there in the working environment

perhaps, to be a hypocrite, sometimes it is necessary

for the sake of seeking survival in the crowd of hypocrite fellowsssss

bloooooooody hell.

**************************************************

apart from that little climax of the day

thanks god everything went good

thanks god for the positive feedbacks from most of them

thanks got there are someone in the corporate world out there who STILL appreciate students efforts and being considerate to some impediment that we failed to look into

"sometimes after the hard works, pressure and exhausting emotions that you had invested in working on an event, and when you see the targeted participants enjoyed and benefited from the event, you will smile when you got back home in tired. no matter how tired you are, this can makes you smile even during your dream"

a simple not-so-corporate conversation with the corporate people might create a contented resonance between me and them

tired

but fortunately

learnt the LESSON

gained the experiences

enjoyed the process

and enjoyed skipping whole day class from 8am to 5pm!!!

Accounting Night Career Exposure Day, SIAP!

kaiwei :)

沉淀思绪

很期待

那一天的到来

那一天

当我终于可以

好好睡一觉

好好哭一场

好好沉淀自己

嗯

真的需要

给自己更多的空间

一个人的空间

只有我自己的空间

沉淀思绪

沉淀思绪

沉淀思绪

现在

有一点点的疲倦

有一点点的不满

有一点点的空虚

有一点点的盲目忙碌

有一点点的乱七八糟

有很多点点的

需要休息

有些忙碌

结束了会觉得值得

有些盲目

结束了会觉得空虚

有些情绪

失去控制不会影响什么

有些脾气

控制不了会毁了一生

啊

需要休息

身心

都需要休息了

最不希望看到的

就是自己说出放弃的那一刻

微

常跟自己说

加油

很快

你就会看到

汗水背后的感动

可是

这一次的泪水背后

有什么？

做不到

很显然的

我

依然

做不到

微

这样下去

好担心

在那天到来之前

我选择了退缩