蓝颜知己

你说的那份感觉

我和他之间，有吗？

再次与你聊天

同样那间房间

同样那把吉他

同样那个环境

同样那个画面

同样那张床

同样那个人

当然

同样那份感觉

这一次

多了一份珍惜

珍惜我们那既遥远又接近的距离

珍惜我们那不用说出口也能会心的了解

珍惜我们那不联络也不会觉得陌生的友谊

希望

这样的感觉

一直能维持

微

白天开心

晚上心烦

半夜失望

我选择

记下白天的感觉

a bad mood will not spoil a great outing.

it is supposed to be the other way round.

a great outing will recover a bad mood.

i had a bad mood. expecting it to spoil my great family outing.

luckily, the jokes and the laughs saved my mood.

kaiwei :)

being in this totally different crowd for just 2 months,

i know myself more.

i know i always play on the safe side.

i know i sometimes can't think calmly when in an argument.

i know i sometimes can't make decision very wisely when i need immediate response.

i know i can hardly control my temper when someone is against my stand.

i know... i have many spaces of improvement in organizing and planning.

and i know, i am tired of organizing and planning events at the moment.

hmmph, stay tough for another 2 weeks and here comes the official 30 hungry hours.

sincerely i hope we can get over this tough challenge together.

next? rest.

another next? no turning back, masc. huuu...

another next? REST. from events, not exam, of course.

gambate. good night.

kaiwei :)

half of my holiday is passed.

i have been spending non-stop since then.

but not working out for any income. not even a part time.

how should i judge this spending?

worth the value?

have been evaluating the value of 'four months holiday' for myself.

take the chance to work and earn some pocket money?

or take the chance to enjoy life

and do something that i might not even have the chance or time to do any more in the future?

i have my aims to achieve in this 4 months

but when i review my list of holiday plans in mind

not many of the items have been checked.

emo.

why is that so?

well it is always the same source of problem, always.

my determination. my self-discipline. my procrastination.

i know nobody can help on this matter beside myself.

have been giving myself so many excuses to wait and wait and wait.

i guess i really need a catalyst.

need somebody at my back to push me.

to remind me and i'm lacking of strong will.

to pull me back from the hole when laziness conquered me.

anyone, volunteer to work together with me to make me a better person?

haihz....

anyway, good night world.

kaiwei :)

怎么有时跟朋友

反而比跟家人更容易说心底话？

只是想问一问意见

却想了又想想了又想

还是不知从何开口

最近

跟你们一起时

又多了很多自己跟自己的内心对话

有很多话

想说

却不知怎么开口

你们

一个眼神

一个眉头

一个语气

都让我怯步

那一次

下定决心了

找个时机找个开场

来个心与心的对话

可是

七天 就这样过去了

还是没办法做到

明明是最亲的亲人

只差了一个辈分

怎么

多了这么多的挣扎？

是我的问题吗？

还是需要两方面的努力？

哎哟

真是伤脑筋

微

想知道

大家

近况如何？

微 :)

加油

这几天

心情莫名的低落

情绪莫名的躁

是怎么了？

原本期待星期四

现在期待星期五

希望

不要再有太多的突然

加油

加油

加油

笑一个

不要变璟瑶的公主

微 :)

回到现实的第一天

感觉 不好

也许

混在这圈子里太频太久

厌倦了

腻了

也累了

每一次的最后一次

都是这一次的上一次

那什么时候

才是真正的最后一次

不像继续

不表示永久性停止

只是

想暂时休息

暂时换些别的事情来忙

可是怎么每次

都说到

却做不到？

微

今晚其实想说

需要倾诉

需要拥抱

需要肩膀

需要你

i promised this is the last post of the night.

and only the right person can understand how much more i wanted to tell by just writing down these few simple lines.

happy sleepy birthday my dear.

to my ever dearest BFF...

i owe you a prezzie. in fact, not just ONE i guess. because i don't remember you have the same amount of birthday prezzie from me as that of the years we had known each other. haha.

anyway, love you, and sorry for not being with you on this important date with you once again. hmmph... muakks...

kaiwei :)

i wonder

when is the right time,

to start going a littleeeeeee bit moreeeeeeeeee

HIGH profile?

:P

after a week.

new experiences,

new exposures,

new friends,

new perspective of seeing the world.

and hopefully, a new better me.

:)

after a week.

here comes the works,

the stress,

the deadlines,

the nags,

the urgency...

oh yeah, the reality.

after a week.

yes, i've been missing you :)