What a mess :(

My life is a mess. Yes, real mess. Everything just seems to be out of control recently that I don't know how to handle them anymore. Godness please I need a break down. A huge break down in tears for i dont know what the heck is happening. Arghh.. Kaiwei :(

disappointment

sometimes i can't help to ponder, 

am i that lousy in your mind that i am always making incorrect judgment and decision? 

if i am that bad in sense of direction, how do you think i can survive on the roads after so many years? 

if i am that bad in common sense, how do you think i can handle my life independently when i am staying out? 

if i am that bad in making decision, how do you think i can stand as a leader in the team of 50 other excellent people?

if i am that bad in making judgment, how do you think i can gain such trust from all the people outside to the extend that they are willing to listen to my words? 

why can't you just slow down and listen to my justification and give me some trust in a better way? 

yes you can doubt on me. you always can. 

but can you try expressing it in a better way at least? 

try considering how will i feel when you talk to me in such way. 

try considering how reluctant am i to put any further efforts to convince you because i know my efforts will usually end up in avail. 

i may not be right in everything. but same goes to you isn't it?

there might even be times when both of us are not wrong, but we were just thinking from different aspects, different backgrounds, and different generations. 

disappointment. i say. 

and i am sorry if i caused the same feeling to you on me. 

kaiwei :(

the empty stare with floating mind and messy heart. wtf.

what i need is just a shoulder and a hug for me to cry and lean on for a moment without asking anything. just this, and i will be okay and move on. i promised.

happy anniversary

august. 

am almost a week late but still,

happy 4th year anniversary. 

kaiwei :P

幸福的理由

“爱你，是我幸福的理由。”

多么感触与怀念的一句话... 

现在，还多了一丝惆怅与惋惜...

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人生中的四个人

有人说

大多数的人一生中会遇到四个重要的人

一，最爱你的人

二，你最爱的人

三，最适合你的人

四，陪你一起走到最后的人

而且往往这四个人，都不会是同一个人。

我想，我也会是大多数之一。

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