Ronan Keating - When You Say Nothing At All

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart

Without saying a word you can light up the dark

Try as I may I can never explain

What I hear when you don't say a thing

The smile on your face let's me know that you need me

There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me

The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall

You say it best, when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud (oh)

But when you hold me near (oh, hold me near)

You drown out the crowd (drown out crowd)

Try as they may, they can never defy

What's been said between your heart and mine

The smile on your face let me know that you need me

There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me

The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall

You say it best, when you say nothing at all (oh)

Oh, the smile on your face let's I know that you need me

There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me

The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall

You say it best, when you say nothing at all

You say it best, when you say nothing at all

You say it best, when you say nothing at all

(The smile on your face)

You say it best, when you say nothing at all

(The truth in your eyes)

(The touch of your hand)

You say it best, when you say nothing at all

(Let me know that you need me)

You say it best, when you say nothing at all (nothing at all)

You say it best, when you say nothing at all (nothing at all)

You say it best, when you say nothing at all (nothing at all)

Wei :)

The best voice in the world, is the conversation between two attached hearts.

HOLIDAY without friends is bored.

perhaps i should take initiative to contact them instead of expecting them to remember calling me for any gathering when me myself had turned them down for many invitations previously.

i know, it shouldn't be 'perhaps', its a fact.

however, come to think about how long i had not seen them...

i start worrying...

i don't know whether i can still mix well with them or not...

i don't know whether we can still have the similar topic of conversation or not...

i don't know whether i am able to catch up with their updates or not...

i don't know....

whether they bother to have me with them at all...

kaiwei :)

planning a trip with C3 sisters, hope it works out at last ^^

阿公&阿嫲

平时我们只是每星期的周末回家两天，陪阿嫲和阿公的时间也不多。当然，看到的也不多。上星期回家乡住了一星期，当个乖孙女，趁着假期陪陪家里两老。那整个星期我全天候贴身陪着阿公和阿嫲，跟进跟出...

每一天，阿公都会载着阿嫲，从家里到芙蓉的治疗中心做物理治疗。那段他们每天必走的路程，最少要半小时。也许是走惯了，又或许是他们根本不能埋怨，阿公从来都没觉得这样来回很累，因为他知道，阿嫲中风后，必须勤劳做运动才能松松关节，不让关节和肌肉退化。也因为他知道，阿嫲平时因为行动不便，很少会愿意出去走走，怕拖累别人，而在治疗中心里，都是一班年纪相同，情况相同的伙伴，至少她能有机会跟他们聊聊天，有机会出门逛逛...我陪他们去治疗中心的那一个星期，发现阿嫲在那里算是最勤劳的一个了，她真的，很想快点好起来。中心常有举行小活动，像是去市场逛逛，或去公园跑跑，又或者在户外玩些小游戏。照片里都有阿公阿嫲的样子。很庆幸，他们都愿意参与大家...

其实阿嫲常抱怨阿公的不是，说他很少在家，爱往外跑，所以她也只是一个人在家无聊。真的，阿公下午很少在家超多一个小时。每天从芙蓉回来后，他就会去园里载工人回来，又或是去街上拿饲料养鸡鸭，再不然就是去大伯家拿晚餐的菜...也许阿公喜欢热闹，偶尔上街时会停下找朋友喝茶聊天，但我也宁愿相信，他是为了家里奔波。辛苦把一大堆鸡鸭养得肥肥胖胖，目的就只是要等在大日子时，大家都回家了，可以宰来让我们有大餐吃。榴莲园里的工作一直没停止过，阿公总是亲力亲为（阿嫲还没中风时，就他们两老亲力亲为）不管多累，他还是坚持要继续种榴莲、山竹、龙眼等一大堆水果，为的就是让我们这些幸福的子子孙孙回家时，有机会尝到自己家的水果。有时我看着阿公进园里跌倒，或在晒椰渣是受伤，都会一边帮他搽药，一边偷偷觉得心疼，为他担心...

阿公阿嫲最疼就是我了，我也常找机会跟他们聊天说说话。我永远都不会忘记，我和阿公或阿嫲躺在房间里一起讲话的画面和感觉。他们总爱重复说着同样的故事，而且话题都离不开那六个儿女。阿嫲说着以前家里还很穷时，她是怎样带着小瓜们挨过的；说着那时候，爸爸和几个兄弟姐妹如何乖巧懂事，让他们也觉得很安慰；说着当她听到爸爸第一个成功进到大学读书时，多么的高兴...阿公呢，就说他以前如何跟那时候的马来官员有很好的交情，还能帮到爸爸和大姑的到大学的位子，阿公为此真的很高兴，很光荣；说着那时候他当警察时的威水事；说着他看到几个大孙们都很乖巧也很懂事，觉得很满足；说着他多么希望能等到我毕业的那一天，看我戴四方帽；说着他多么希望能看到我找到一位疼我的男朋友，一位像爸爸一样好的男人，然后看到我结婚，看到我幸福...

曾经有一次，阿公很灰心地跟我说，有时觉得活着很累，想早点离开。那时我的心痛得眼泪都快流出来了。那时候，也许阿嫲因为行动不便脾气比较躁，他们比较压力吧...这一趟回去，阿公常跟我说，做人不要太计较，看开一点，心情也会比较轻松。我阿公在哪里都能睡得着，什么时候都能睡得着，他说是因为他没想太多，没烦恼太多。呵呵

我有时会悄悄问自己，不知现在阿嫲阿公之间还有年轻时对对方的爱吗？还是早已经随着时间，仅剩习惯对方的存在了？很难答吧...但现在，我看到了，也感觉到了，他们对对方的在乎，依然是那么的深...

阿公性格比较温，阿嫲脾气比较硬。可是，我觉得，心里的那份爱，都是一样的。

先说说阿嫲吧...

她最讨厌他驾车时飞很快。与其说讨厌，不如说担心。好担心他会不小心出事，毕竟那么老了。别说她，有时我在车后座都会心惊胆跳。

她常碎碎念，说他整天不在家，在家不是看戏就是睡觉。有时也会说回N年前的事情，说他以前很爱赌，不顾家。若心里不在乎的话，会不爽，会碎碎念吗？

她知道他喜欢吃什么。有时出门时交待阿公买材料回家，自己就在厨房忙半天，自己行动不便下不了手，就在旁用讲的教工人煮，出来的味道也不错哦！吃饭时，看到他吃得津津有味，那天晚上还加了一大碗饭，她很高兴地指着他笑...

那阿公呢？

每天从治疗中心回到家后，阿嫲会进房小睡一两个小时。这时候，在出门前，他会先亲手绞一大杯的鲜橙汁，细心的拿盖子盖上，放进冰箱里，等她醒来时就马上能喝到冰冰凉凉的鲜橙汁。不是用绞果汁机，而是那需要很用力才能绞出橙汁的容器。那天他弄了两杯，一杯给我，足足七粒橙，弄得他满身是汗。能不感动吗？阿公从来，都不会弄给他自己喝。不知是因为不喜欢喝，还是想把橙留给阿嫲喝?

她行动不方便，出门时一直很怕会跌倒。我在时是我在旁扶着阿嫲，平时嘛，阿公会很习惯的，稳稳地牵着她的手；穿鞋时，走路时，上下楼梯时，都是这样。

吵架时他会忍着。偶尔不服气当然一定会有的，但之后跟我静静聊天时，他总会很温柔的说，“其实你阿嫲很不错的，只是有时脾气比较暴躁一点罢了。她很疼你们，又很会顾家，看她把孩子们都教得那么乖。她最厉害煮东西了，什么都会煮，什么糕点都会做，而且比外边餐馆的还好吃。她没有读过书，但什么都会，什么语言都讲得很流利......”

我想说，

这就是爱

这就是老夫老妻

这就是我的阿公阿嫲

我永远永远，

都会爱着他们

疼着他们

记得他们说的每一句话

为我做过的每一件事...

微 :)

boring updates

finally my house internet connection has been reactivated! hehe. but bloody hell. whether it's due to the connection problem or my own laptop's problem, i still couldn't surf the net very smoothly using my own laptop. the connection keeps disconnected and reconnect only when i restart the connection. cacat betul... both my brother's laptop and home dekstop didn't face any similar problem. WHY??? lolz... well, i'm kind of...IT noob. totally no idea how could this happened.....

internet is not everything, i definitely can survive without the smartest invention in the world. but not having internet actually makes my works harder. especially when i cannot get connected with all the updates of the issues on both events i'm working on now (i-week and 学记全国营) now that the we had retrieved the connection, things become more convenient, although my laptop is still a little bit 'anti-internet'. worse come to worse i can use my brother's laptop or the dekstop when i'm really desperate. hehe.

the 1st best thing i get to do when i can online back is to talk with babi hehui and pi poh yan... haha. and fortunately, i managed to connect with both of them yesterday night, the 1st day i got back the internet. hehe. too bad conversation with hehui did not work very smoothly, don't know whether is my connection or his connection problem (problem, again) i couldn't hear him quite clearly. seriously miss this fella damn a lot. it has been some time since i have a nice long conversation with him. one good news to be shared. both of them are coming back to malaysia in less than a month time! hehe. can't wait to hang out together, or simply just meet up at any of our home to have a good chat. i believe we must have a lot of updates for each other. hehe. hopefully after almost a year of being apart in different countries, we won't have communication gap la, because sometimes when i chat with them through skype, i will feel we're getting farther and farther apart. sometimes la... hehe.

ohya, by the way, for those who don't know, i'm officially on my great holiday now! and this is the 3rd week already. like usual long holiday, i stayed at my hometown for 1 whole week last week, be good companion for my grandparents. i'll update a post specially for them soon, was planning all the nice words and sentences to be written when i was staying there at Pedas(it's a place name, my kampung. hehe) last week. other plans for holiday? haha. erm...erm...erm... i listed down so much plans in a post previously, how are those plans going on? well... things are going on quite smoothly. as most of those plans don't need much specific time or efforts to complete. i'm resting well enough, try to sleep before 12am everyday, and doing quite well in that. i'm spending at least one and a half hour everyday for zither practising, but still receive many comments on my mistakes when i met my teacher this morning, haha. i'm aiming 2 novels on the shelf, but always couldn't make up my mind to spend the money on them. stingy, am i? yes. proven, i'm an accounting student! haha. i'm trying to make myself available to the gathering with 8poh and others next week. hope it works out at last.

akhem... seems like this post has turn out to be super long and dull and unattractive already. i better stop here before everyone stop coming to visit my blog. haha. boys and girls...of my old sbs-ians mates, 学记 mates, UM mates... classmates schoolmates coursemates universitymates... i'm 'almost' free and available now. hope i'm not dropped out for any gathering or parties ya. hehe. miss you all so much. ciaoz...

regards,

kaiwei :)

看不见的意义

和辉问我

怎么总爱玩那种无聊的游戏

那一问一答

存在或不存在

好像都没什么分别

对啊

仅剩的那一问一答

好像也不过如此而已

可是

心底有很细很细的声音在为自己辩护着...

希望不管表面上看来是如何的

事实上依然会有那么一点点的不一样

那只有我们自己能了解的不一样

微 :)

怎么啦？

假期前兴奋地计划着，期待着，向往着...

很多很多想完成的事情...

现在终于等到假期了

当然很开心

终于考完试了啊

可是

之前那份热诚却似乎比想象中的淡了点

在所有让人期待的假期计划面前

感觉心

只想好好休息

想暂时放缓脚步

看一看身边那平时被忽略了的风景

想暂时停下脚步

和久违的自己说说话

想暂时放下包袱

让自己专心地荒废时间

懒懒地赖在家里

让脑袋完全放空

可是回头想想

这样的话又好像有点空虚哦？

好啦，

女生就是这样矛盾...

微 :)

哈哈

纯粹发泄啦

假期还是快乐的

约定？

我希望

有那么一天

我们能读到那两张小字条

微 :)

这算是约定吗？

holiday to-do-list

Woohoo...!!

exam is over. what's next? HOLIDAY, here i come...!

have plenty of list-to-do during this coming holiday:

1. the end of exam signifies the start of I-Week 2010, so... let's kick the ball rolling! all OC and FC, i have faith on all of you, make this event a great success! ^^

2. besides I-Week, i have another on-going event also. 学记全国营2010. i am in the program department, and what-is-more, i'm in charging on the bloody opening ceremony gimmick. haha. it is going to dry up my brain 'juice' soon...

3. plenty of movie days! hk and 舜斌, i remember i promised you guys a movie each. be patient, i'll eke out a day for our date. hehe.

4. a long-awaited gathering with pi family. 8poh, faster finish your exam. yan, better make me the 1st person to be informed after you fly back to malaysia. ju, make yourself free, arrange a great outing for us! baobei, you are always so near yet so far. make a day free for us this within this 2 months, ok? i have a lot of stories and updates for you guys. miss all of you till the max!

5. babi hehui. you know what i want to say. and i know what you want to scold me for being such a busy busy and super busy person all these while. we haven't really make out our time to sit down and have a good chatting for some time already, isn't it? you too, make me the 1st person to be informed when you are back to malaysia, but i don't think i'm available to hang out with you until 学记全国营 ends at 19th june. come visit the camp la, its just at UCSI.

6. read some novels. i had been a full-time nerd for almost a month during my exam. study room was my room and my room was my hotel, for me to bath and sleep ONLY. and i suddenly miss you, babi hehui, very much when i don't know who to ask for any good reading recommendation. haha.

7. go back hometown, and spend some time with my dearest 阿公& 阿嫲. feel so guilty for not having the time to go back Pedas for almost a month due to exam. i think i had reached my limit. miss them soooo much.

8. of course, go back home, and enjoy my time with dad, mum, and bro... ever since we grew up and reach the college stage, we hardly get together in 5. always lack of someone either far at kuala pilah or kota bahru, and now UM. i miss the time when i can call "爸爸吃，妈咪吃" before meals... i miss to hear the LAME jokes from 2 of my SIAO brothers...

9. practise 古筝 of course. i have abandoned it in mum and dad's bedroom for such a long time, resisting myself from touching it when i have the chance to drop by at home during exam period so that i can go back to the nerdy world. now that i finally have time staying at home, i think i need to brush up my skills more. fingers are getting harder and odd on the strings. how am i suppose to go for the exam in august if this continues....

10. find someday, go malacca. i know you (yes you, and you know it's you i'm saying here) will know how much i want to go malacca someday, and you know why... make it happen PLEASE......

11. sleep sleep sleep and SLEEP. the deep dark panda eye bags have almost been my identity ever since i entered UM. when can i get rid of these ugly bags? haha. i kind of deserve that though, doing my revision last minutes, joining so many events, and yeah, being TOO responsible and perfectionist in everything. lol. duh, i am sure i can't help myself from outing, talking, watching drama and many more etc even after i am done with all the obligations. never mind, i will try to adjust my hours back to normal. TRY...

12. "planning on progress"

hopefully.... i will have a great and enjoyable holiday. after all the hectic life in campus, i do hope to have some time where i can put down all the pressure of studies, and completely enjoy myself in doing things that i like.

HaPpY hoLidAY everyone!

(8poh i know you will feel like whacking me when you see those red big words)

regards,

kaiwei :)

大坏蛋

也许选择放弃

不是最需要勇气的决定

选择接受新的感觉

才要了我的所有的胆量

站在悬崖边

也不知是好是坏

只知道

我的极限就在这黄线上

像你说的

只希望

我的感觉就是我的答案

大坏蛋

很多事情即使你不对我说，我也知道

其实

很多东西即使我不对你说，你也知道

不是吗？

真的真的

很想念你

小坏蛋。微 :)

心累了

跑回家充充电

充满电了

又回来这鬼地方

继续冲刺

继续消耗电力

微 :)

家，永远是最温暖的避风港

好像已经找到

心的落脚地

微 :)