Wednesday, December 22, 2010

something better than love letter :)

和你之间真的是一份“缘”,
你让我体会到并非亲姐妹但又似亲姐妹的感觉;

初次的认识,
模模糊糊的画面,
记得很不清楚,
但你却有时喜欢挂在嘴边,
“有个人,跑过来问我,我们可不可以做朋友?”
“你会不会讲华语?”
~lame~ 我想回去都有点尴尬,
笨笨的我竟然会做出如此下水的东西!
还要给你牢牢地记在你的心里!

每次听会回你诉说我们的经过,
又气又好笑,
气你把我下水的事情说出来,
好笑是那 lame 的动作让我找到那么的一个你。
虽然刚开始认识时,
之间的感情并非深厚,
之后我还“离队”,
认识另外一帮朋友,
记忆里,
和他们我也搞得很不开心,
还曾经流过眼泪,
以前的我眼泪线真的很浅。
若没有记错的话,
你曾经邀我和你们坐回一起。

之后,
一起当上图书管理员,
那时候也没有什么交集,
若没有记错的话,
我们真真一起熟起来时,
应该是中四时,一起上补习班,
还傻傻的我们并称小家庭-大姐,二姐,小妹
再次笨笨的我被骗成为大姐,
就这样成为了你的大姐,
给你叫下叫下大姐,
听习惯了,
所以当你叫我 Ong 时会骂一骂你,
欺负小妹还是我习惯做的事情勒!

我们之间的缘分都没有停过,
奇遇让我们再次遇上,
second intake 的我和你同一间 matriculation 已经很难得了,
还要在同一间宿舍 - C3,
那时候的开心的感觉并非笔墨能形容,
真的很棒。

但你大姐-我
性格不如你如此的看得开,
老实说,刚开头在 matriculation 的那几个月,
有点小妒忌你,
有点小不服你,
自认比你付出更多,
但得回的比你少;

这几年的相处,
这几个月的合作,
对你的认识更深进一步,
你的压力并非画在你的脸上,
你的悲哀伤心常常挂在你的心里,
了解到每个人的努力都是一样多的,
只是不是每个人都能看到的,
你的付出与我同等,
只是一层白雾把它遮着了,
从来没有发觉过。

那层白雾,
在我的心里应化掉了,
你我之间不分你我,
以大姐的身份,
答应会好好照顾你,
只有我一人可以欺负你!
哈哈哈~~~

不过,
常会做出对你过分的事情,
为了他们,
牺牲了你,
挂在嘴边骂骂的你,
虽说你没有事,
说说罢了,
但多多少少的失望应该有吧!
明白对你的不公平,
但有信心你会了解,
谅解。

还有,
之前有几次对你发脾气,
不知道为了什么事情,
就是曾经找你开刀过就对了,

办活动的斗嘴,
但那斗嘴的经历我却甜在心里,
尤其是我们成功达到共识,
出炉的结果还不错啦。
想告诉你,
我们是能合作的伙伴,
虽然称不上什么天衣无缝,
但大家开心就好,
到最后能把目标达到就好,
吵嘴和谁合作都有的,
即使是一对很恩爱的情侣都会有斗嘴的一天,
这样不平淡的生活,
才能真真地擦出火花。

还有,
有些事情我们之间太过熟,
很难开口,
所以有事时,
我不会第一个找你倾诉,
也许我想在你的心目中留下完美的大姐,
不想让你知道我太多不好的事,
不想让你知道我的不快乐,
可是,
到最后我也会忍不了口向你道说一切一切,
所以不要吃那么多醋,
在我心目中,
你比谁都特别,
你的真诚对待让我感动,
对你和其他人都有点 special 的咯,
没有心机地对待,
不求回报的对待,
只限几个人的拥有,
想告诉你
你是其中一个。
认识我那么久,
深信你比谁都了解我做事和处事方式,
都是机心累累。
哈哈哈,
竟在这里踩扁自己的人格,
tidak~~~


很开心认识你,
很开心你容忍我的不是和霸道,
很荣幸能够成为你的大姐,
发生不愉快的经过,
不知道你有没有对我改观,
可是,
你永远都是我的小妹,
那个傻婆小妹!

今天是你的生日,
在此祝你生日快乐,
笑容常常挂在你那小脸蛋,
对你的那一句话很深刻, “to protect the beautiful smiles on our faces”
答应你不管什么事情的发生,
那漂亮的笑容都回常挂在我们的脸上,
那八年的友情不会那么容易被毁掉的。

最后,
三八一下,
快快接受你的同学吧!
看得出你们都很喜欢对方,
当因为你的不肯定,
让他等了那么久,
一年的时间都快到了,
我也很想看看结局,
爱情在眼前要好好把握,
尤其是遇到彼此都喜欢彼此的时候,
虽然也许他不是你的最爱,
但他是能给你幸福的人,
你也愿意接受这份幸福的人,
这样就 ok 啦!
我要都没有!
哈哈哈。。。
真正的快乐不一定要和你最爱的人度过,
而是能给予你幸福的人。

~可不可以把这个 post 给关起来啊?~

哈哈哈,
20岁的凯微,
小妹,
2 字头来了,
你也开始老了!

大姐 上
=)

author's recap:

dajie, first time receive this kind of blog post dedication, very excited.
simply feel like 'stealing' this post from your page.

there's never enough of words for us to describe our many many years siblings bonding,
hence i believe,
action speaks louder than words.

between us,
we never used to say any touchy words.
but still,
the feelings exist.

real.
yet unsound.

well, i guess i will just cut the craps,
and left with you just one word.

THANKS!

loves,
小妹 :)

Monday, December 20, 2010

thanks god


sometimes, some things, aren't the same although they are the same.
as they differ by person.
by who whom did that SOME things.

it can be hurtful when one person does this;
but joyful when it is done by another someone.


the forbidden door has been unlocked.
surprise. even to myself. i know.
what was it that drove the intention to unlock it?
even myself, i couldn't tell.

timing? part of it, i guess.
person? most of it, i perhaps.


for many days and nights i have been thinking of it.
thinking of whether that was a right decision to make.
and again, even myself, i couldn't tell.
we will just let some special thing called 'time' to prove me the precious outcome.

what if it is right? thanks god, we made it.
if it is wrong? thanks god, we tried our best to make it.


good luck and happy birthday to myself.


kaiwei :)


very peaceful birthday i had
without limhehui limxiaoyan limjuwee shayeejin tangcarrie
who always make a wonderful noise in each other birthday
i simply miss you guys so much
and seriously appreciate the voices of hehui and yan yestd, ON TIME...
muakks....



happy birthday

happy birthday to me!

thanks for the calls, especially the two surprising calls from UK.
thanks for the wishes.
thanks for the gift.
thanks for the trip.

simplicity, sometimes can be memorable still...


kaiwei:)

Sunday, December 12, 2010

same words. different speaker.


the same words,
same sentences,
same terms used...
can be interpreted in different meaning in different period from different person.

sorry that i always interpreted your words in this way,
not good,
and never it is fair,
i know...

but even myself couldn't understand why,
that it will happen to be such a difference between others and you, particularly...

is it because you are someone special for me?
or is it because i have higher expectation on you?

there is one thing that i never dare to tell you,
that perhaps, maybe, probably, likely...
i mean,
just...
PERHAPS,
that's the reason why i sometimes do wish us to remain in the grey zone just like the way it is...

because i know myself.
and that is why i was never a qualify candidate in that position.


well,
perhaps you can not to worry too much,
as i had never been so firm with myself ever since that year...
even until today.

that is me. the i-also-don't-know-what's-happening me...


kaiwei :)

anyway
don't worry
i believe
and i know you do believe
that things will be alright
when things are all alright


Friday, December 10, 2010

siblings

siblings

we know each other ever since the moment we open our eyes to see this world

we are close
very close
that's why we never keep our words in the heart

but
sometimes
it's also of the same reason

that we know each other too well
that we expect them to understand us the very same 'well'

we argue easily


the 'best' catalyst to provoke un-satisfaction
is when both have different expectations
in works


sometimes
i would rather


not work with you
to protect


the beautiful smiles on our faces


kaiwei :)

i am sorry
if sometimes i am harsh

i am sorry
if sometimes i do mind

i am sorry
if i made you feel bad



Friday, December 3, 2010

looking forward...

looking forward...

for the coming 2 days 1 night malacca trip.
and you know why :P

kaiwei :)

when was the last time i...


when was the last time i spoke with lim he hui?

when was the last time i met tang carrie?

when was the last time i msn with lim xiao yan?

when was the last time i breakfast with cheow hock khuen?

when was the last time i asked 'pi! how are you?' to lim ju wee?

when was the last time i spam the conversation box of sha yee jin?

when was the last time i had lunch or dinner or supper with tham kar kit?

when was the last time i knew about cambridge life from tang ji jian?

and etc, etc, and etc...

when on earth,
was the last time i step out from my university life circle and go back to my good old friends' warmth?


when...
was...
the...
last...
time...
we...
had...
a...


GATHERING?!!!

kaiwei :)

8poh
damn long didnt sms with you already
tonight sms till my fingers also painful
haha
happy...
wheeee~~

给你的,猪大少爷


你说


不要把眼泪洒在过去残败的记忆里
掀开新的一页
留下崭新 洁白 的诗集
不管结果是如何
亲情和友情将永远在你身后替你撑腰

什么时候开始
你的鼓励
你的安慰
已经成了能让本公主安心的话

什么时候开始
你的鼓励
你的安慰
已经成了本公主崩溃前想听到的话

什么时候开始
你的鼓励
你的安慰
已经成了本公主习惯翻看的话

什么时候开始
你似乎成了本公主的好朋友
那特别的好朋友

我想说
谢谢你

我想说
希望
你一直都是本公主那特别的好朋友

我想说
多忙
也别忘了向本公主请安哦

把猪和公主联想起来,是这样的东东吗?
哈哈

微 :)

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

我知道
这个时刻
不应该气馁
可是还是忍不住奢望着
能有个紧紧地拥抱
让我好好痛哭一场

我答应
哭过
就好了

尽力就好?

原来


“尽力就好”

这四个字



粗心的人用不起
努力错方式的人用不起
高估自己的人用不起
道理明白得彻彻底底 需要时却不会运用的人用不起
还有
嘴里说无所谓 心里却在流泪的人


用不起