get well soon, my love

i'm sorry but i can't stop my tears when i hear your weak voice.

i tried to hold them back to eke out a force smile for you.

i don't know whether i made it. but it is so difficult, you knew it don't you?

uncontrollable tears keep rolling down, my cheeks were painful because of the dry weather.

but my heart is more painful.

do you know,

how much i want to be back with you when i know you are alone in dark and fear now.

do you know,

how hard it is for me to still have fun with my friends when i know you are in pain.

do you know

how painful and worrying it is when i have no idea what is your current condition.

do you know

i love you so much that i am still not ready for not having you in my life in any way, especially at this point of time when i can't be with you, hold you hands and say you have to stay strong for me.

so

please

my love

remember your promises,

you promised that you will have your bones covered with fleshes not just skins when i go back,

you promised that you will welcome me back with splendid home-cooked delicacies that you have been tempting me from the video calls all these while when i was away,

you also promised,

that you will take good care of yourself when i was not around,

that you will make sure of your good form for me to hug and hold when i am back.

be well soon, my dearest grandpa.

take extra care of yourself, my dearest grandma.

and you too, my darling family...

i love each and everyone of you with all my hearts, and i couldn't afford to lost anyone yet.

lots of loves from 4000km away,

kaiwei :)

想念你们了

想说

希望你们可以多点打电话给我

不只是因为担心你们不习惯我的遥远而日夜思念

而是

其实我也不习惯没能每天听到你们的声音

想说

我在这的生活很悠闲

资金有限也不能每天都出去吃喝玩乐

所以什么时候找我都不会打扰到我

好不容易弄到的手机

一直都处于开机状态

为的就是当你们想听听我的声音时

随时都能找到我

可是一星期过去了

怎么手机一直都还是静静的呢？

想说

这样的宁静

我会更担心 更不安

所以

常打电话给我

好吗？

真的真的

不会打扰到我

想念你们了

微 :)

열심히!

a month has passed since i last set my foot on this new beautiful ground.
yes, in just a glimpse of eyes.

i keep clicking the refresh button in my brain,

to see what have been updated, what are the new input, and what are the news feed that keep appearing on my 'wall' for the past 1 month...

hmmph...

despite the travelling to different places every weekend, everything seems to be too quiet.

my study, my mind, my thought, my new circle of friends, my new language, my endeavor, and even my shopping list!

guess it's time apply higher pressure on the paddle, for a better speed.

gosh, now i can feel the impatience of time, on how it never wait for anyone or anything.

열심히!

regards,

kaiwei :)

miss you, friends.

it is always not difficult to make new friends,
but also not easy to maintain the friendship.

mesmerizing, i am lucky to have many friends that stayed in my life for the past 21 years.
but as time goes,
some memories fade,
some friends left,
some friendships have been forgotten.

i wonder,
how many friends that have left their footprints deep in my heart?
and how many friends, that remember me as their friend, and that i had left some impact in their life?

friends, i miss you already.


loves,
kaiwei :)

ohya, and some friends are complicated.

just like he and he. :P

stay strong my love

my dear,

i know what you are going through now is the hardest time you ever had in the passed 21 years.

i could never understand the pain that you are going through right now,

and i am so sorry for not being able to be there for you and her back there in malaysia.

i so want to run over to you and give you a tight hug and to cry together with you.

but i'm sorry i couldn't.

you are such a darling friend for us all these years.

and it is painful by just looking at the grieving messages on your wall.

please promise us to stay strong my dear.

collapse and cry it out with all your heart.

but always remember to stand back up very soon, and remember that life still goes on.

it is true, she has went to heaven and to be the angel for you and your family,

and i am sure she wishes to see smiles instead of tears on your pretty face.

take care my dear.

i miss your loud voice and the contagious laughter so please, stay tough.

i love you.

remember we are here, and our hearts will always be with you.

loves,

kaiwei :'(

life is short

indeed,

the most painful thing in life is not aging, nor failure,

it's the lost of your loves one.

appreciate and cherish all moment that i can have,

with my grandpa and grandma,

dad and mum,

the two brothers,

and all other family and friends.

the last thing i would want to experience is to regret for not knowing how great it is to be able to see them, speak to them, touch them and simply to have them in front of me anytime i want.

life is short. and uncertain. i keep reminding myself on this.

i love you with all my hearts, my dear family.

loves,

kaiwei