for our special PI ROOT

yan! happy april fool eve! haha. tick tock tick tock~ time flies without waiting. 5 minutes more you're not birthday girl anymore. erm... really sorry because we didn't prepare anything to make this a special memorable day for you. nowadays, even a complete pi's family outing is hard to make out. jin, carrie and you are schooling. ju is...don't know what she's doing now. as for me, don't know whether should i say i'm working or holiday-ing. haha. but still, all in different areas, different timing, different fields. well, we're just not having the 'suprise-party-mood' without everyone being together. i suggest, next time we gather all of our time-table and organizer, make out one day outing, sekali SUGUS celebrate all special days we have. okok? haha.

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anyway, i had a great few hours tonight. it feels good to meet up and sampat and scold ppl and crap and do embarrasing things together. ohya, do you realised that everytime when juwee is around, we need to stop her from getting too HIGH? haihz... amat memalukan. since nobody wants to stand or sit or walk beside that lame fella, next time when hang out with her must lock her in the toilet. haha. but still, must ask her along when hang out. well, she's the LEADER for most of our lame and memalukan acts wert. haha. after all, we're same category human beings that's why we can get along so well.

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today seems to be an ordinary day. no suprise from us. no present from us. no early birthday wish from us. no special birthday plan from us. even tonight's dinner, you're the organizer. (but of course if you didn't date us out we'll know what to do also la, hehe) however, you have us being with you on this ordinary day and this makes our day become extra-ordinary. hehe. happy birthday auntie vivian's daughter. haha.

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happy birthday yan. this is not an april fool eve joke. =P

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-pi-

Suprise!

on friday morning. 7am. i was sleeping and dreaming and waiting for alarm clock to wake me up at 8am. i dreamt about my brother talking with my mum outside the room. then i dreamt about him coming into the roon, was standing in front of me, and said HI to me with a grin on his face. his friend-Peng Hong appeared and did the same thing after him. i dreamt about myself having the 'what-the-hell' expression when i saw him, slapped myself to prove that i was dreaming. i dreamt about my brother and his friend laughing and my brother threw a blanket on me. OUCH! then... i dreamt about myself going back to sleep.

on friday morning. 8am. my hp alarm woke me up. i remember something happened an hour ago. i took a glimpse towards the door from my bed. the light outside was on, and i heard sounds of computer keyboard, tip-tap-ing. i rose up and peep out on the road. my mum was preparing to go to office. Peng Hong's red saga was outside! what an OH MY GOD morning. that fella really came back from Kota Bharu. to cool down myself, i decided to close my eyes a few seconds before i wake up to brush my teeth.

on friday morning. 9am. i woke up, again. this time, JUMP up from my bed. i thought i wanted to close my eyes back for few SECONDS? haha. okay, i was late. nevermind. i still dragged some times talking to my gor gor before i go out. hehe.

here are some 花絮 on that morning. Gorgor came back by bus. only peng hong and another friend( further story on her is coming soon) knew about this plan. he reached kl at 4.30am, peng hong went to bus stop to pick him up. knowing that papa normally go to office at 7am, they went to mamak to spend time. 7am, they reached in front of our house. too bad. papa went out earlier that day because need to fetch my little brother to school. nevermind. then, gorgor pressed to doorbell.

ding dong....
ding dong....
ding dong....

mum and i didn't hear anything from upstairs. okay, he decided to call my mum.

KS ( gor gor) : hello. mummy ar? wake up already or not?
mum: yea... anything?
KS : mummy. i miss you orh...
mum: huh?
KS : i miss you la...
mum: o... exam coming is it? (mum thought he was suffering depression due to pressure on exam, because the 'i miss you' came to her toooooooooo sudden and tooooo early)
KS : nola, not yet exam.
mum: o...
KS : mummy ar.... can you open the gate for me ar?
mum: ???!!!

about the 2nd people that knew about gorgor's coming back. she is a friend of his girlfried from UPM. he told her because he 'needs' her. haha. he was planning a suprise birthday celebration for his girlfriend. (her bday on 2nd april) so he need someone to help him to date his gf out so that he can appear behind her with a bday cake and handmade bday card, suprisingly. what a sweet boyfriend. ^^

this time, he only came back for few days la. Peng Hong just came to fetch him to airport about 11.30am just now. his flight is at 3pm. his next holiday will be on 24th april. look forward for that time! hehe... miss you~

-kaiwei-

Bloody Scholarships

right after spm results release day, those who haven't start college (including me) started to immerse themselves in doing research, going edu fair, attending colleges' open day, filling application form, rushing for deadlines, blah blah blah... i went for TARC open day on 9th march, and was quite satisfy with the courses, fees, facilities, and future pathway offered there. and i just submitted the application form today. as far as i know, quite a lot of my friends are eyeing for UTAR or TARC. and a few of my friends and cousins advised me not to go TARC because they said it's not good enough. (especially TARC formal student XD) haha. whatever la, my parents think it is not bad, and so do i.

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by the time, my parents asked me to apply all the scholarships that i think is suitable. (as if i only need 5 minutes for every application) so i did. khazanah, jpa, bank negara. and currently still trying on hongleong, asean, shell, etc... feel damn frus on all these scholarships. actually i'm only eyeing for any scholarships that can offer me full tuition fees for whole course duration, which means all 2 or 4 years, instead of only 1 year. before this i hope i can get a sholarship which can sponser me to further studies at UK, but now, i felt differently. let's imagine, IF tomorrow i get a call from whatever-organisation telling me that i'm offered a full scholarship to UK, and i have to prepare myself because the departure date is like, 1 or 2 months later. how will i feel? what will i react? yes, it's true that i will feel super excited because it's always my dream to get myself an exposure to oversea, especially UK. but can i really put down all the things here in such a short time so easily? my family, my friends, my home, my interest... a slip of mind on being apart with them makes me feel hard to live. but still, one reason why i am so reluctant to apply for all these scholarships is because the process is really frustrating! 1st, fill in the application forms which i need to include old old information and couln't bare to make a single mistake. 2nd, prepare all the CERTIFIED photostated certificates, even translated copies, sometimes. 3rd, i just found one which i am required to write a short essay on why i deserve this scholarship.

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damn damn damn. @$$%^^&&. sorry, i just couln't help myself from repeating lots of unknown foul language, but only quietly in my heart la. bloody scholarships! i will definitely force myself to bang my head on the wall if i failed to receive even HALF of what i had applied. XD

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-kaiwei-

希望未来有你

《一号朋友》

作曲：陈颖见 作词：陈颖见

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遇见你是最快乐的事

无论什么时候

一见面 就能够

让话题细水长流

我们曾经历欢喜哀愁

一起交换感受

还相信 多年后

会在街上碰头

我想我 真幸福

路上有你陪我一起走

你说寂寞如果停留

你会握紧我的手

我会在 你左右

一起走到世界的尽头

就算时间不停游走

我不会忘记

我的一号朋友

让我再证明眼泪的温柔

没有别的理由

只因感动不眠不休

我会在 你左右

一起走到世界的尽头

就算只在乎曾经拥有

还是忍不住

向上天祈求

天长地久

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这是一首我很久以前就听过十遍百遍的歌。几天前我突然重听这专辑，还是觉得很有意思。最喜欢这首歌的最后几句，

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就算只在乎曾经拥有
还是忍不住
向上天祈求
天长地久

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此时此刻，

我有我珍惜的人，

需要的人，

想念的人，

喜欢的人，

惦记的人。

我希望，我的未来有你，也有你们。

拥抱

开心时，一个喜悦的拥抱能把这份快乐传出去。
伤心时，一个温暖的拥抱能让眼泪流个不停，但伤口会好得快一点。
生气时，一个柔和的拥抱能为心里那团火围起一道安全之墙，不让它烧伤自己。
寂寞时，一个久违的拥抱能毫不费力地把孤单赶走，还确保它不会太快回头。
思念时，一个熟悉的拥抱能把思念的苦涩变成思念的幸福。

而我，偶尔觉得空虚，偶尔觉得心口闷闷，偶尔纯碎想念拥抱的感觉。
我不是会突然失去理智的人，也很少跟家人或朋友拥抱。但庆幸我的朋友在我突然上前紧紧抱着他们时，都不会惊讶的把我推开，也不会拼命追问为什么。
也许他们也知道，拥抱的威力有多神奇。

无声的享受

比起讲电话，我比较喜欢面对面谈天。
可是最近我发现，原来讲电话时不一定要讲话。

拿着听筒，就算我们各自在忙各自的事情，我依然能感觉到电话另一边那呼吸的声音。
拿着听筒，就算只是偶尔讲几句没point的话，我依然享受你的存在。
拿着听筒，就算静静的不出声，我依然觉得你离我好近好近，就像我和我的心的距离。

此时此刻，我觉得这一句最贴切。
好久不见，你好吗？