i can't hold back my tears

because this feeling sucks.

knowing that i should NOT put a blame on anyone else but myself

knowing that this is nobody's fault as nobody mean to see this deep shyt situation either

knowing that i should ALWAYS be understanding enough to everyone like i usually do

knowing that i should really act like what i say, 'just, forget it'

but still

i am putting the blame on SOMEBODY,

i am NOT being very understanding AT ALL,

and i couldn't do like what i said, 'just, forget it...

and so

this feeling sucks.

kaiwei